Speaking of Release...

Life is crazy. I've been on the craziest emotional roller coaster in the last 2 weeks. Old flames, best friends, wine, beer, revelations, work, money, skinny dipping, tractor square dancing, mortgages, 2 year olds, and peeing in the grass. Yep that's the quick run around. I kinda feel more like a kid than ever, but at the same time oh so grown up. I mean skinny dipping with your best friend at the reservoir makes you feel like life is perfect and simple, fun and care free. On the other sanitized hand, I'm trying to get a mortgage to buy my first home. (Holy shit, I can't even legally have a beer in public yet!) I want to have fun. We booked a hotel room in Windsor, ON for later this month. I'm gonna live it up and drink it down! I need a little release from the stresses of grown up life. Speaking of release, I would love to have sex. With a man. Preferable that I care about. I'm seriously feelin' the drought. There is only so much you can do with yourself and batteries. I'm so exasperated at life that I want to lay down and give up one moment, and the next jump up and party. (I believe this is some form of pre mid-life bipolar crisis. Do they have good pills for that?) I want to be done with this house shit. I want to have some rough and damn fine sex. I wanna get drunk and gamble in Windsor. Then I wanna go back to being a responsible adult for a little while. That's not too much to ask. Is it?