Somewhere Along The Way...

Well. I guess it's time for me to have a word. I've been in a funk lately. I don't even know what it's all about. There has been a lot of death around me. I'm not sure I'm dealing so well with it. I don't know what to think anymore. I've never been a very religious person. Well, I guess that's a lie. When I was in middle school and the beginning of high school I was very involved with church (Mostly fueled by my mother). Somewhere along the way I lost a lot of faith. I don't know how I feel about God, or heaven, or hell, or good, or evil, or the church, or the world today. I'm not sure I have enough in me to truly believe in something that so-called powerful. My mom says if I had a little faith all of this would be easier. I'm not so sure. Is it really justifiable for all this pain, if God is "testing" us. "It was her time." "Somethings are beyond are understanding." None of that makes me understand. It doesn't make me feel better. I guess there is nothing anyone can say or do.