Doubts of Faith

It's amazing what the human spirt can endure. Pain and Suffering. Loss and Death. Physical and Emotional ailments. We never give up, for fear of failure when we do give in. What happens when your spirit gives up? You die. Have you ever been around someone who is dying? From old age, cancer, severe injury? They die when they want to. Don't kid yourself. The human body can endure so much, it will last as long as your spirit is holding on. There are countless stories of people dying, in a coma, or otherwise, completely unable to communicate, and once that single important person that they were holding on for says to them "It's okay to let go, I know it's your time to go." it's a matter of minutes. I suppose death is a depressing topic. I don't know, maybe our culture has glorifyed it. Made it this heinous scary event. Zombies, ghosts, and other "living dead" have run rampant in hollywood. I'm a firm believer in the spirt world. If you know me well enough then you know that the spirt world is a firm believer in me also. People have unfinished business. Ghosts aren't always the happy Casper kind, sometimes their unfinished business is more sinister. For example vengance? If you don't have that connection with the other world then you really don't need to have any concern for your saftey. (Unlike most summer blockbusters portray, ghosts really can't hurt you.) If you are connected the way that I am you are going to know waaay in advance when a spirit is good or bad. You just know. I'm not sure why I have been contemplating this so much. Everytime a major event happens in my life I become more in touch for a brief period. I have always seen things other people don't see and felt things other people don't feel. Sometimes I feel as though this has a profound affect on my issues with God. Why it's so hard for me to have this blind faith. I know things other people don't. I see things that make me question what kind of God allows for this to happen. I wish I could just know that there is a God. There are things in my life that I just know. The existance of God isn't one of them. I wish someone could make it simple for me. Simple enough to believe in. However, unless that person knows what I know, I'm still going to struggle with their faith.